On Saturday Adam and I hit up the Home and Garden Show in Minneapolis because I love all things home and he loves all things garden. It was ok, but nothing to really write about.
After we got home I felt exhausted. I thought it was from the stimulation and tiring process of walking through the show, but lo and behold it was because I was sick. Not just sick. S.I.C.K SICK!
Before I get into this whole story I will tell you that I used to get sick all the time. Like ALL. THE. TIME. And since changing my lifestyle I rarely get sick. I do however have that feeling like I’m going to get sick every couple months and my body usually fights it off and it amounts to nothing.
Apparently it just didn’t have the strength and resources to fight it off this time.
So I got sick. Fever, chills the whole works.
I thought this was the kind of sick where if I was a good girl and watched chick flicks all day Sunday it would be gone and I could move on with my life.
I have had to cancel everything this week and bow down the goddess of I-will-wreck-you-if-you-try-to-do-anything-because-I-am-the-queen-of-SICK!
The point is that I’ve had a lot of time with my thoughts, my apple TV, my NOOK, and my iPad.
Here’s what I’ve concluded now that I’m finally upright again.
The universe is trying to tell me something. (Duh, Katie! It always is.)
And this time I’m listening.
On Super Soul Sunday I watched Ms. O interview Deepak Chopra. I’ve never really heard him speak for an extended period of time. Wow! He said a few things that rocked me to my sick core. Things I had heard before, but not in such a direct and clear way. Ya know – authenticity, consciousness, true self vs. the ego – the uge. Of course I immediately downloaded his book: The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success.
I fell asleep before it finished downloading and didn’t actually read it until Wednesday.
First lesson: You can’t multitask and expect true rejuvenation. Take a real break. REST for crying out loud! And don’t even think about feeling guilty about it.
I continued my fantastic fever followed by chills sessions into Tuesday when the dreaded cough set in. It also happened to be the day that Jina (you know Jina, remember this and this, oh and this?) started her next 100-day journey. This time she’s going to meditate every day for 100 days.
I have been so interested in meditation these past few months, but haven’t quite figured out how to do it yet. I’ve read a lot and tried it a couple times, but some instruction is definitely what I’m looking for. Her 100-day trial came at the perfect time.
I used her first video to try to calm my cough and chill out for a moment. I’m going to try to keep up with her and do some form of meditation each day. If you’re interested check it out.
As I sat there (with Watson) my body began to relax, my cough lessened and I couldn’t help but think;
Why has it taken you so long to do this?
You know this is good for you so why are you resisting?
You need to find a way to make this a part of your life?
(I know I’m not supposed to be thinking at all. What can I say? I’m a novice.)
Second Lesson: You need to do what you know. Practice what you preach and teach. Put action where your thoughts are.
Yesterday I was couch-ridden for most of the day again so I started reading Deepak Chopra’s book that I had downloaded on Sunday. It’s a very short yet powerful text. Each of the seven laws made me take a close look at the state of my life. This book couldn’t have come into my life at a more perfect time. It put words to what I have been feeling for some time now. It gave me a clear perspective and an even clearer direction.
What I haven’t been able to put into words until yesterday is that I feel like I’m getting lost in the world around me. Like I’m losing myself.
I’m not living in the present. I’m caught up in options, possibilities, the future, the past, things, strategies and ideas.
I’m getting lost in all of it.
Biggest Lesson: You need to turn it all off, ground down, stay rooted, be honest and stay true to myself.
It’s not going to be super easy, but I know exactly where to start and I know it’s worth it. I’m going to start by sitting my butt down on my mat every day. For 5 minutes, 10 minutes or an hour I will be on that mat. Whether it’s mediation or yoga, that’s where I’ll be. It’s a practice that doesn’t take thought, just repetition and effort.
THEN…I’m going to do what I know works. Which for me means limiting my social media and screen time. Doing focused work and then stepping away from my computer. I will check my email less, because my dependence on it is unhealthy. I will continue to use my make life even awesome-er list. Notice how I had meditation on there? It’s been on my mind for a while. And over all get to living now instead of thinking of the future.
And lastly, I’m going to dig deeper into this book. I know it’s SO what I need and I want to understand how each law applies in my life. I’d like to be so clued into it that I can actually use the mantras and lessons on the fly. Tangibly this means taking it one chapter at a time and practicing it in real life for a while. I want to get back to being guided by my inner compass instead of reacting to my external world.
This forced break has been a struggle, but a necessary one.
I GOT THE MESSAGE UNIVERSE!
I know I’m always writing about learning and growth and changes, but that’s what life is about. My life is one big small change project. I’m really excited to get started on these changes. Just knowing what was going on with me makes me feel better. I’m thinking life is going to get a whole lot better in just a short while after make these changes.
I’d love to know you’re thoughts on any or all of this. Have you ever been through something similar? What do you think of my plan? Hit me up in the comments or on social media. Let’s get this dialogue started.